Forgiveness is Just a Word People Say!!!
Forgiveness were are you? Some people know not of the word, they say they do, they say they have forgiven, but in reality they are just as broken as the lies they tell to your face.
Let me tell you a story about a Church, a place that is so caught up in image; keep in mind am not judging, am not telling you what I heard, am telling you what I know. This church was so caught up in numbers, caught up in how big they could get the audience, which type of people they could preach or teach to without being offensive, a church that was to scared to deal with real issues that surrounded everyday life, a church that condemned ME.
Luke 6:37 (ESV)- “Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven;
Matthew 7:1-5 (ESV) “Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye.
Okay, Okay I could go on and on with scriptures about judgement and condemnation, however I choose not too. When you have a person tell you that they forgive you then say that they don’t approve of a novel you have written and neither does the church–you thank God for the Holy Spirit for keeping you grounded and not saying nothing.
First and foremost I did not write my novel for the person(s) that condemned me at that church (The Crossing in Brandon, FL), I wrote my novel for me, for others like me that could relate and see themselves as survivors. If my book offended your congregation….I will not apologize, I will not suppress what is happening to thousands of children a day, I will not lay down and not be heard, I will FORGIVE YOU of your pettiness, of your condemnation that you brought against me, I will forgive you of how you called me demonic for writing such novel. How dare you pastors nowadays think they are the only ones that hear from God? If that was the case we would all be in trouble–because we are the flock following blindly after our teacher(s).
FORGIVENESS; don’t say it, don’t use it if you really don’t mean it, don’t let it slip out your mouth because you think I want to hear it……I don’t. I am telling you All that I forgive you of your IGNORANCE. You are forgiven and I mean it, I look beyond the pettiness, and feel sorry for the ones that are following you blindly. I hope this message cause you to look at the way you are raising your flock and ask God to deliver you all from what’s beneath the surface and into your hearts.
The real tragic to this story was this church lost three members that were actively involved in the church and doing the work of God. Thanks for reading my novel or pages of it, it lets me see how narrow minded church people can be, it lets me see how you can take an innocent fragile scene as rape and turn it around and say that, that child will grow up to be a lesbian/gay….how dare you!! You are weak, sick, and closed minded people. Furthermore this is the real kicker the book was written and published in the state of NY and the author (me) moved to FL three years later, there happen to be names that were the similiar as the congregation and of course the church did not like that so it was said.
Well that’s why we have disclaimers, I don’t know you, I lived many states away, and if you are feeling convicted in your spirit maybe you need to deal with your demons from the past instead of finding a way to chastise me about my novel; just saying. So I hope this little story peaked you interest enough to FORGIVE someone, everyone, or yourself before it’s too late; please really mean it!!
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